Some people decide to follow me because of what I have done in the past. Some of the people will follow me because of what I have preached in the past. It does not matter to me how they decide. I have never liked nor I hate. I like and I love. That is why I decided to follow Jesus.
I have been involved in the ministry of the Lord for over twenty years. I have been on some television programs, I have written some articles, and I have read some books. From the very first day that I entered the property, that is where I began to experience things. From the first impression I had when I came to the house. I was at a home centre where I was invited by a preacher to attend a small group Bible teaching. It was a Wednesday, a Wednesday where I had never been informed of the type of person I am, a female, or the type of person that I am, a gay male. I had no idea, I had no idea what was going on. That is usually the way of people; I wasn’t an adult that had no idea what was going on. So it was good that I had that opportunity. I remember the feeling of meeting this person, this presence this person had upon me. I felt this tremendous force within me and I was overwhelmed and honoured to be the recipient of such a blessing. That was my introduction to proving the power of God and the ministry He had called me into.
From the day I was physically submitting to the milk and bread I began to eat, and as I ate and drank, I began to feel a great joy and peace and strength and all the emotions of the Lord. He has never left me that church home. I went home for one reason; God introduced Himself to me. I have not forgotten it, I will never forget the days that I spent with Jesus after that church home, I can sum it all up as I remember them. I remember the times, and even though they were moments in time, and I know that I was not with Jesus, but I was still filled with the assurance that He was with me.
I met him at the home where He was with His disciples for an entire week, taught every day. He loved and doted upon me. I know that I neither hold nor claim to any of those attributes. But I remember those moments and the feeling as He touches me. I remember how sad He was when He saw me along with the others during the teaching times. How He has looked for me, how sad. Sometimes it still fill my heart with sadness but not now, not anymore. I have never gotten to the point that I am not sad, I am just happy that some other humans exist and I have some love to give them. I am happy that I was deposited in a good Christian home, with a good Christian father and there is a good Christian son in the home to help me grow up. I am not perfect by any means, no, I am still a work in progress but I honestly think that I have passed the test of the Lord and believe that I can produce good things from this seed that I received.
I remember the names of the disciples, Matthew, Mark, Luke and John and I am truly grateful that I have known them, but I cannot imagine living my life without having known Thomas. I cannot imagine being in a place without knowing Thomas and I cannot imagine not knowing Thomas. I cannot imagine not having heard his voice nor having had the opportunity to get to know him, and I cannot imagine not knowing how my life would be like without knowing Thomas, Judas and Peter. It would be very difficult to live my life without that knowledge or experience.
Please believe me when I say, I have learned a lot from those three men. So I recommend that you at least give as Gospel to those three as you would anything else that you have read or heard to help your life in Christ with a living hope.
Thomas has become a much more testimony to me than either of my sons. And I thank God for that, because without them, I would still be wandering the world in the darkness of my lost and unfulfilled desires.
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It is so easy and the most important thing that you can do is to optimise your time, cut down your expenses and Optimise your blog or website. You want people to visit your site and read what you have to say, listen to your counsel and follow the wacky Westside sermon that you foolishly thought was good enough.